Hurt 4

Previously on Hurt...
I ran out of starbucks and left him there just staring at me leave, I needed to breathe, I neededspace.
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I waited all this time for him, my sweetheart, my baby… do I want to be his? I'm his second? I'm standby? No. I won't be. I can't be. I deserve better!!

I needed time to think, to escape! I took the first flight back to Kuwait.

I arrived at 3am, the driver only knew I was coming and I told him not to tell mama, I saw the driver he came to take my bags into the car.

Driver: ahhh Tammy!! Mama not know you come?

Tammy: hiiii!! No don’t tell her! I want to surprise her!

Driver: ok wait here I will bring the car

Tammy: ok, I'm going to get something to drink and come.

I went into starbucks and ordered orange juice. Went back to the car which was parked in front of the door, I rode in the back seat, listened to my iPod and closed my eyes.

Driver: Tammy!

Tammy: huh?

Driver: we are here!

I looked at my watch and it was 3: 30am, I called my nannies cell and she opened the door, she knew it was a surprise too. We had our hugs and kisses and I headed to my room. I took off my trainers and took a shower, wore my pajamas and slept like a baby. I was home! I left my phones switched off, I needed time alone.

The next day
Mama's yammering outside my door woke me up, but I stayed in bed acting asleep.
Mama: Jema (my nanny) why did you forget to clean here? And here? And here? What have you been doing all day? Did you clean the children's rooms?

Jema: hehehe yes madam hehe

Mama: why are you laughing? Am I joking with you? Why didn’t you clean today?

Jema: I did hehehehehehehe

Mama: ohhhhhhhhhhhhh JEMA!

Then I heard her footsteps walk away, and I fell asleep, moments later.

Mama: you cleaned her room?

Jema: madam no no very dirty don’t go inside I will clean today hehehe

Mama: ok move

Jema: no madam, you want tea? (blocking her from opening Tammy's closed door)

Mama: ok I want tea

Jema: ok (she walked away stupidly thinking mama gave up)

Mama opened the door and found nothing, the bed was set, and everything… she went in giving her back to the bathroom.

Mama: why didn’t you clean the bed! It's all messed up! Clean it all today! (she seemed disappointed, she thought she was going to be surprised by me..)

They left the room and mama's footsteps lead to down stairs. I looked at the time and it was 2:10 pm, mama, Jenan and baba eat at 2:30pm
I rushed and washed up wore something nice (jeans and a white vintage top) and watched mama sit in her place calling out for everyone to eat. Baba came and sat at the head of the table, mama on the side next to him and Jenan in front of mama. I usually sat beside mama or Jenan. Jenan saw me in the kitchen we said our hellos quietly, she started crying, and I told her not to go in till I did. So I came in casually kissed mama on the cheek and baba's head and sat next to mama. They thought I was Jenan not really looking at my face.

Baba: ha Jenan shlone senior year?

Tammy: ma adre babatii

Jenan came in.
Jenan: ha mama shenu el '3ada?

As soon as she came in they both looked up at me.

Mama: BINTIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

She stood up started crying and I went and hugged her.

Baba: hahaha wallah ya Tamara inich mu hayna hahaha

I hugged baba and he had a tear in his eye. I love them so much! So we sat ate, mama was OVER excited! We decided to go out as girls, me mama and Jenan. Then baba would come for dinner after work.

I wish I could stay and not go back..