Part 50

An hour later we were in my car driving around… I showed him a couple of places we visited before, and then I told him each story we had in each place.

We got to Baskin Robins…

Khalid: ha 7abooba shenu taben?

Me: vanilla!

Khalid: with chocolate

Me: no baby I can't eat chocolate I have allergies.

Khalid: oh ok, what should I take?

Me: you mean what do you like?

Khalid: hehe yea

Me: cotton candy

Khalid: ok *he held my hand*

We sat there ordered our ice creams, ate up, and hung out.

2 hours later I dropped him to his car and we left to go home…
Khalid Calling

Khalid: haaaa baby

Me: ha 7abebe

Khalid: I want to see you after tomorrow

Me: where?

Khalid: chalet

Me: w your family?

Khalid: they aren’t going

Me: ok

BEEP BEEP BEEP

We didn’t talk since that phone call. The day after I woke up dressed up into my juicy tracksuit, straightened my hair and brought along my big Louis V. bag… I got into the car and messaged him telling him I was on the way, when I got there



Dialing Khalid:

Me: baby

Khalid: hala baby

Me: I'm out

Khalid: yala kane, do you see me?

Me: yea baby!

BEEP BEEP BEEP

I got out and gave him a big hug!!

Khalid: come here baby

Me: I missed you

I looked deep into his eyes

Khalid: me too…

We both smiled at each other

Khalid: come on in

He opened the door














































What do you want me to say?!

The room was filled with all the memories I showed him! All the pictures we took when we first met! Our baby pictures together, flowers banner that says, "You're all mine, happy anniversary"! I turned to look at him































































Me: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Khalid: agoolich shay?

Me: ee!!

Khalid: I remember.

Me: you remember?

Khalid: I remember you

Me: BABY REALLY? *my eyes were full of tears by now!*

Khalid: ee 7ubi, I remember you

Me: baby!!

I hugged him and he carried me and started to kiss my head

Khalid: but we are changing a lot.

Part 49

You guys I'm so sorry but I have a lot of things happening these couple of days, family is flying in and out for a wedding so I'm trying to give you mini parts till I'm completely back;****

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I sat there talking with enthusiasm, I told him about the days we met and how we were as kids, I told him everything we talked about, everything we did, I told him about Jassim and Hala, I told him about our precious kisses, hugs, how romantic he was.

2 hours later

Me: haha w mara you traveled without telling me and I got SOOO mad!!

Khalid: lol are you serious?

KNOCK KNOCK

Khalid: come in

Waiter: sir, madam, do you want to order sweets?

Khalid: tabeen 7ubi?

Me: hmm la not from here

Khalid: no thank you, just green tea please

Me: make that two

Waiter: ok sir

She left the room and closed the door behind her.

Khalid: we have been through a lot huh?

Me: yea *I looked down, I missed him, I swear, no one would understand but I did*

Khalid: how many months were we together?

Me: hmm, may, june…..april… OMG

Khalid: what?

Me: our one year anniversary would be… after tomorrow!

Khalid: *speechless*

I had tears in my eyes, readers please try to understand me, I was in love with a man I shared everything with! We did everything together! We thought alike! And at the end he forgets it all. He doesn’t even remember me, he doesn’t love me in the same way or as much, and he doesn’t know all the things we did together. AND our anniversary is in 2 days! That’s the day we are suppose to give each other things, and that’s suppose to be when we remember everything we did in the past year, but where is that person? Imagine you are in my place! At least if he died (l7amdillah he didn't) but if he did! I would still celebrate it alone with all the memories of him knowing that he left me with all of these wonderful days. But to be with someone you will have to celebrate this day with! A person that has no connection with your past. The same person that left all the memories to you and every time you see him/her you want to blurt out an "inside joke" but cant because this person now is like any random person and wouldn’t get it!































It hurt. My heart hurt. My throat hurt. I felt like knives were piercing into it. Tears escaped me eyes and rolled off of my cheeks. I wanted him to be like "HAHA JOKING I REMEMBER" or "GOT YA!" but he sat there just staring at me.

KNOCK KNOCK

Waiter: here are your tea sir

Khalid: thanks

Waiter: welcome

And she left the room

All I felt was his warm hand hold mine.

Khalid: don’t cry, I told you I'm going to try fixing everything.

Me: *I smiled with sorrow*

Part 48

He asked me to close my eyes, which I did…

I felt his hands cover my neck with something.

Khalid: open your eyes

Me: *speechless*

Khalid: you like it?

Me: I love it

As I got closer to him, to kiss his luscious lips he held my shoulders and moved me away.

Khalid: Lama shfeech?

Me: I want to give it back

Khalid: give what back?

Me: the present

Khalid: how?

Me: by a kiss

Khalid: lama how could you even think for a second that I would kiss you. I want you, I really do. Bas how do you expect me to let you give yourself to me itha ana I don’t know who I am yet! Aren’t you thinking about that? Don’t you think ina this would be wrong?

I started to tear, WAIN MY OLD KHALID?!

Khalid: shoufai lama. Ana aratheech with everything I can do. But don’t expect me aratheech 3ala wrong things you are doing.

Me: but… *tears escaped my eyes*

Khalid: but nothing.

I felt so embarrassed I couldn’t think straight. I just left the place and rushed to my car. I waited for a couple of minutes crying at the wheel but he did nothing. He didn’t come after me, NOTHING.

Compose message:

Khalid thanks so much but if this is the new you then I want the old one back. You don’t understand what we were. How can I explain. I want the old you back not this you!

1 message:

Wainich?

Compose message:

In my car

1 message:

Come inside.

I got out of the car and into the small room. He just sat there looking at me with tears in his eyes. I sat in front of him.

It was quiet for a couple of minutes

Khalid: shoufai lama. I don’t know what we were before. I didn’t get my memory back. And I might have done all this before but that’s not me anymore! I don’t remember anything! I fell in love with you now. On my ground! My rules! If I touched, kissed, etc. to you before then I pity myself for that. Because I know you are too precious to be touched or kissed right now. This is the man you are sticking with! I am not the same man I was before but I fell in love with the same girl and its either you accept that or ……

Me: I just miss you! The old you… you don’t understand what we had! It was priceless, we had our inside jokes, songs, certain things I can't have with anyone else… even you. I love you, but I'm in love with the old you… this might sound stupid but you differ a lot.

Khalid: I have an idea…

Me: hmm?

Khalid: how about we eat lunch while you tell me about how we met and everything that happened between us. Then after lunch we will go cruise in the car and you can tell me where we used to go, deal?

Me: ok

Khalid: come here

He pointed right next to him. I went there and kissed his eyes. So did he… we ordered food…

Khalid: ok yala tell me…

Me: it all happened when…

Part 47

I KNOW I KNOW, its so short, walla ill post another one today, sorry;*

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3 HOURS LATER

I read the messages and my heart fluttered! 7abeeby wallah, why would he think ena I'm going to leave him 3ala shai sa5eef… he is really sensitive now… he doesn’t know that my life revolves around him no matter how much I keep telling him that!

Dialling Khaloodi

No Answer

Dialling Khaloodi

Khalid: aloo

Me: hmm aloo *sleeping voice*

Khalid: SORRY WALLA SORRY KINT BIL 7AMAAAM! *concerned*

Me: 7abeeby 3adi, shda3wa

Khalid: baby your voice

Me: shfeeh? *SHIT I SOUND LIKE A GUY WHEN I JUST WAKE UP!!!!!*

Khalid: it's so seductive

Me: hehe no it isn’t, I sound really bad

Khalid: if you think you sound bad, then keep speaking in this "bad way" cause you sound so sexy.. I want to see you so bad

Me: la mako *dala3*

Khalid: I need to see you to give you something

Me: ok, fine. Ra7 aba6ilek baab el sayara w enta mur 3ind il bait w 7e6a wel car w leave *haha tourcher*

Khalid: ily taamreen feeh

Ya 7abeeeeeby he is so cute and modest!

Me: bas hatha mu ely abe *dala3/ shy*

Khalid: 3ayal shenu ely tabeena?

Me: aby I c u

Khalid: then let's meet somewhere

Me: meshtahya sushi

Khalid: then wasabi?

Me: wasabi it is

Khalid: ok 7abeebty

Me: bas ma agdar I be late for Rula!!

Khalid: we won't take long, I promise

Me: ok

Khalid: 3a6eeny bosa

Me: no *extra DALA3*

Khalid: baby!!! Yala

Me: noo!

Khalid: mwwwwwwwwwwwwah

Me: wain a7e6ha?

Khalid: your lower lip

Me: ur naughty

Khalid: shoufai entai shemsawya feeny, then come and talk

Me: make it up to me and I'll make it up to you
Khalid: ok baby! How about we get up and change and meet there in half and hour

Me: mashy

Khalid: bye gumar

Me: bye bader

BEEP BEEP BEEEEEEEEEEEEP

I got up, washed up, but I didn’t know what to wear, so I went into Rula's closet and took out this really cute top, which I wore with my skinny black jeans, and a waist belt and flats. Applied a bit of makeup and took my purple Balenciaga bag and left.

He called me while I got into the car and we negotiated about what food we were going to eat and itha rethait or not yet. 6AB3AAAAN I was in the nafsia mood because I wasn’t supposed to show how much I missed him. When I got into wasabi it was empty and the waiter took me to one the small rooms. Awal ma I got in I sat in front of him and I could smell his scent, MMM! It was so good, I wanted to do it right there! But luckily for us we still didn’t start doing things, he never tried, I think when I want him I should take charge, full charge.

Khalid: hala ib Lamooyti, hala ib umy, hala bel gumar killa

Me: hiiiiii *NAFSIIIIIIIA*

Khalid: lal7een za3lana 3alai?

Me: *No reply*

Khalid: ok smile mamatii

I turned my head so he wouldn’t see my face with the hair covering it and couldn’t help myself but to giggle…

Part 46

Just to make things clear, this is a true story. Many people asked me if it was or not. And yes it is. Its my story... All the good, bad, and suducing parts were put for a reason, its my story people so dont blame me. Sorry for any disappointments.

This is dedicated to Cupid;* Ya 7mara i miss u:(

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For the next five months Khalid and I hung out nearly every day, we would go to the hospital every other day for his checkups. I was trying to make him regain his memory of me and of everything. He started to remember his family, but didn’t remember me yet. Yet each time he would smell my perfume, he would say something like, "shamha min gabel", or if I would wear something I wore for him before he would say, "DA JA VOU!" hehe and I knew he saw me wearing it before. the doctor said that he is going to become better soon inshalla. He is regaining his memory slowly.

What was shocking after all those months that Khalid was starting to crawl into my heart slowly. Not him! Cause I loved him already. I meant his personality, the changes! The new him. I mean he became shyer, and he was very determined to make me always happy. He started to fall in love with me too, I guess he is really still inside there somewhere; he fell in love with the girl he loved. It sounds odd but it's true. He wanted to take care of me, to be my man, and he was becoming my all!! We loved each other now to the point that we couldnt live without each other, not even for a day!

Dialing Khalid (2:39am):


Khalid: hey lamooy


Me: hii Khaloodi


Khalid: ha wainich?


Me: in bed


Khalid: betnameen?


Me: yup


Khalid: shfeech mnafsa? *concerned*


Me: mu mnafsa *MNAFSA!*


Khalid: seriously, shfeech?


Me: Khalid, elyoum the whole day mu sa2el 3ani *dala3 tone*


Khalid: Lamooy I'm sorry wallah I am, the guys ma 5alouny wallah


Me: yea I understand *sad, nafsia*


Khalid: when will you stop il nafsia??


Me: when you make it up to me


Khalid: I'll do anything! You chose anything and I'll do it!


Me: hehe anything?


Khalid: ee I promise!


Me: fine! Wainik?


Khalid: chalet!


Me: ok meet me at starbux tomorrow at 7:15 am.


Khalid: baba that too early!!


Me: ok fine whatever!


Khalid: No baby, I promised anything and you're going to get what you want!


Me: ok la7tha barou7 ashrab mai!!


Khalid: ok 7abeebty


2 minutes…


Me: back!


Khalid: how about we sleep so I can wake up w a7dirlich tomorrow


Me: haha ok aga3dik?


Khalid: ok baby I put an alarm anyways!!


Me: ok baby gnite


Khalid: gnite


Me: bye


Khalid: HEY!


Me: ok ok, mmwwwwwwah


Khalid: haha mwah!


Beep beep beep


HATHA WAJHIK YAL MISAAAAAAAFIR LAMA KAAAAAANAT LEE 3IYON!!! WAINAHA 3YOUNI 7ABEEBY SAFARAT MITHLIK 7ABEEEEEEEEEBY


The alarm woke me up 3ala the voice of Rashid al Majed, his voice made me feel
good.

I glanced at my phone, there were no missed calls or messages, and it was 7 am.


Dialing Khaloodi


No answer


I got up into the bathroom, and washed up.


Dialing Khaloodi


No answer


I changed and got into the car


Dialing Khaloodi


No answer


I thought he was going to surprise me because he would never break his promise! He was that as a huge deal!


I called twice while I was on the way but there was still no answer.


Compose message:


Not answering are we?


No reply


I got there, ordered my drink and breakfast. No Khalid. He didn’t come. So I decided to head home at 8am.


Dialing Khaloodi


No answer


Compose message:


Uff Khalid you promised me! I'm gunna sleep don’t bother calling or messaging!

I went back home changed into my undies, read a couple of blogs and slept.













ITS BEEN THE LONGEST WINTER WITHOUT YOU

I DIDN’T KNOW WHERE TO TURN TOO

SEE SOMEHOW I CANT FORGET YOU

AFTER ALL THAT WEVE BEEN THROUGH


Khalid calling


Me: aloo


Khalid: 7abeeeeeeebty ya 3omri, baby lamooya!


Me: hmm?


Khalid: nayma?


Me: no *I was sooo asleeeep!*


Khalid: I'm so sorry! Ra7at 3alai noma


Me: ok


Khalid: I broke my promise! I didn’t mean to! I swear!


Me: mm I know *sleeping wallah!*


Khalid: laish mnafsa


Me: I'm not *msa6la*


Khalid: baby ill make it up to u


Me: nah its ok


Khalid: mbala I wanna c u today


Me: no I can't!


Khalid: why?


Me: I need to hang out with Rula


Khalid: betsafer today?


Me: yea


Khalid: bel salama inshalla


Me: ysalmik


Khalid: ok just for a few minutes, I wanna give you something


Me: 5 minutes


Khalid: 10


Me: 7


Khalid: deal mita?


Me: I'll call you in 3 hours


Khalid: why?


Me: bnam!


Khalid: I wanna talk to you baby, rethaitai?


Me: you have till 12 am to tratheeene


Khalid: ok ma ra7 nsoulif now?


Me: Khalid, wall I am tiered, ga3da min il 9ub7


Khalid: ok sweety sweet dreams


Me: bye


BEEEP BEEEEEP BEEP


*SNORE*


2 messages received

1 from Khalid: forgive me

2 from Khalid: baby I love you please don't leave me

Part 45

Sorry for the short post, inshalla bacher a3awethkum;* This is Specifically written for Exquisite:*!!

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The next two weeks were the same. I would feed him, we would talk, and I would bring a few things to bring back his memory of me, and his mother and everyone else around him.


Khalid: am I a good photographer?


Me: you’re the best there is!


Khalid: 9ij? And I took a picture of all these?


Me: ee! They were for my project! And this is us!


I showed him the picture of us in the car together, and then tears escaped my eyes.


Khalid: I'm sure this is so hard for you!


Me: I miss u, my Khalid, that’s all.


Khalid: come here


I went up on his bed and sat next to him.


Khalid: shoufai lama, if I don’t get my memory back, I'm sure we can start something up, ya3ni if I loved you once I'm sure I will love you again.


Me: Khalid I know, but I don’t want a new man, I want the old you, the guy that understood everything about me, our inside jokes, our experiences. Not the new you, you won't know how to do anything!


Khalid: I won't know how to do anything?


Me: you won't know my favorite food, drink, place, mood, and most importantly you won't know how to make me smile! You won't know the difference between my smiles! When I'm happy, sad, tiered, mad, quiet! I don’t want a new you I want the old you.


It might have been mean but I couldn’t stop crying! I wanted my baby! GIVE ME BACK MY BABY, YA ALLAH REDA LINA SALEM INSHALLA, YA ALLAH RIDA LINA IB KAMEL 8UWAH EL 3A8LIYA. I said in my heart. He held me close to him while I cried. I couldn’t breathe.


Knock Knock Knock


I got up and opened the door…


Doctor: ahlan abla, inti ib tibki laih? Didn’t I tell you that crying la bezeed wala yna2a9?


Me: ee *I smiled* doctor how is his situation so far?


Doctor: I have good and bad news, 2a2olek aye wa7da ilawel?


Me: good!


Doctor: 7an5aragou bokra w raga3ou il bait 5ala9 , bas yege ye3mel checkups koli youmain


Me: *I glanced at Khalid and we both smiled* bad?


Doctor: ana ma badmansh ino his memory 7aterga3 bil sor3a diyat! And it's going to take a lot of time, so I'm dismissing him so he can visit places and do things that might bump back his memory into place.


Me: inshalla


Doctor: yala ana 7ab2a ashoufkum 3ala 5air, w deer balak ya Khalid w ma te26a3shi il medication


Me: la t5aaf doctor he won't


Doctor: ana asta2zin w ill c you bel checkups.


Me and Khalid: bye Doctor.


Khalid: garbai


Me: hmm? *face down*


Khalid: look at me


Me: hmm? *looked up*


Khalid: you have a spark in your eye


Me: 9ij?


Khalid: ee wallah, in the past weeks it's the first time I see it


Me: because I'm happy, you used to tell me ina I have one every time you made me smile and that’s why you made me smile


Khalid: haha cute.


Khalid * "haha cute?" WTF is wrong with me. KRAHATNY! She is so pretty, her smile, that spark, ukhhh… Am I falling for her? Will she love me if I didn’t get my memory back? Would I still be "her" Khalid?*


Me *"haha cute?" that's all he could come up with? Khalid please ridly! I don’t like the new you, he acts weird bas I might stick with him to look at you every single day and remember our memories together, but I don’t think I can love him, he just isn’t you anymore!* my heart ached while my thoughts scared each memory slowly.

Part 44

I was sitting in front of my laptop listening to the latest Rashid album, I couldn’t help but think about Khalid… A month passed… with no call no message nothing. Wain khalid? Wain raa7? I need him in my life! He isn’t calling nor answering my calls…Is it business? Bas it's been,, hmm… 28 days,,, I'm breaking down, I can't do this anymore! Our families are back, so I get that he might be busy with them, or with work, I drove past his house twice but no sign of his car… should I call his mom? La la la asti7e! shagoulaha,, umm 5altie wain wildich…. AGAIN?! Shbetgool 3ani?! Mu entail 5a6eebta! Shlone ma t3arefeen?! I feel lost! I can't do anything…
Rula: ti6li3een weyaay?


Me: wain?


Rula: Baroo7 Strabucks


Me: no I don't feel like it


Rula: Lama! It's been almost a month and you haven't left the house what's wrong?


Me: nothing!


Rula: Khalid?


Me: I haven’t heard from him for so long, I miss him, and I don’t know where he is


I broke down, right there, I couldn’t handle it. The tears, they made their way through and I felt so embarrassed… how could I have gave a guy my whole body, and he just left me like that, in a blink of an eye… well I am still a virgin but that’s not all that matters. He doesn’t have to open me to realize I'm "mu zaina" and not "baree2a"… ok now other than that, shagool 7ag Rula? "uhh I did stuff with him and I think he changed his mind about our marriage???!!"
HOW EMBARESSING! I thought he was different! I think that’s it… he left me because of that, but I don’t want to find out, I don’t want to face reality, that he left me…


Rula: sweety tell me…


Me: it's nothing, I just can't get a hold of him…


Rula: did you ask his mom?


Me: No… I was hoping you would…


Rula: ok, sure…


Rula Dialling Um Khalid


Rula: aloo


Um Khalid: aloo hala Rula shlonich 7abeebty? *her voice was shook*


Rula: b5air khalty intaw?


Um Khalid: walla ib 5air


Rula: khalti, ba'3ait a3aref wain Khalid…


Um Khalid: laish shfeekum 7abeebty 9ayer shai? *she sounded so jumpy*


Rula: la khalti I just wanted him to help me set up a surprise for Lama… before their milcha


Um Khalid: *she started to cry heavily* walla 7abeebty Khalid told me not to tell anyone about this. But he has been in the hospital for 2 weeks… 7abeebty Khalid got in an accident min a month ta8reeban, he was on his way to your dad's office, they had a meeting w kan mit2a5er 3alaih. He was driving fast when his tire burst *gulp* and well that’s when he crashed. I am going to talk to your mother later on today; I want to call it off. I believes that your sister deserves someone else.


Rula got up slowly and acted casual, I didn’t know what they were talking about, I was so eager to find out… she left my room into hers and locked the door keeping me out.


Rula: why would you call it off? Why wouldn’t you want her to find out? Khalti ihy t7iba!


Um Khalid: 7abeebty oho akthar, he can't remember anyone since he woke up from the comma a few days back …*panting* not even me… the doctor says it might go away soon, in time.


Rula: Khalti ana many fahma… why call it off she'll wait; it's just a car accident… She'll postpone everything for him, I'm sure. *tears in her eyes*


Um Khalid: la 7abeebty, bas the doctor said ako possibility he… ya mama ana ma aby your sister tet3ab weya la2ana 7altah 5a6ra *they both burst out crying*


Rula: Khalti la tkalmeen omy, 5alni akalim Lama w etha rethat we won't call it off ok?


Um Khalid: ily tshoofeena 7abeebty


Rula took the hospital information from Khalid's mother and got out of the room to tell me the news.


Rula took a quick bath so it wouldn’t show that she was crying knowing I was waiting for her on the other side of her door. She dressed up to go out and opened the door


Me: HUH HUH SH9AAR? *I jumped up cheny yahel*


Rula: didn't I tell you were going out yala dress up! I'm gunna be waiting in the car then I'll tell you!


Me: ok yala


I rushed to my room wore my trainings, and rushed back to the car.


Me: YALA SAY!


My heart was beating fast, and m y breaths were short.


Rula: Khalid


Me: ee shfeeh?


Rula: he is ok. But he got into a car accident, a really small one and he is doing checkups in the hospital now


Me: which hospital? *I was surprisingly calm, really calm*


Rula: Hospital X.


Me: let's go, now.


Rula drove fast to the hospital, but I still didn’t react. We didnt say a word. I was so calm, I kept thanking god and praying that he would be alright. I didn’t shed a tear, not one. We got to the hospital and I walked calmly to the elevator, walked to his room, I found his mother standing outside his room reading qur2an.


Um Khalid: hala yumma


Me and Rula: hala 5alti…


Me: shlonich 5alti inshalla ib 5air?


Um Khalid: il7amdillah 3ala kil 7aal ya bnayte


Me: mmkin adish?


Um Khalid: ee 7abeebty oho nayem, Rula dishi weyaha 7abeebty


I turned and looked at them


Me: badish brou7y please


Rula: ok 7abeebty I'm here for you.



















































I got into his room, it was a private room. He was sleeping and he had a scar on his shoulder, a broken hand and his legs were wrapped. I went and sat next to him. Held his hand and started to kiss it, my baby, how could you have not told me about this, baby. I fell asleep after 30 minutes.





















TWO HOURS LATER


Khalid: lou sima7tai. Ga3d t3awreeny


He shook his hand to move it away from me…


Khalid: goomai


I woke up surprised


Me: 7abeeby, Khalid how are you feeling?


Khalid: *confused* 5air i5ty? I'm fine, and you are?


Me: *stunned* Lama.


Khalid: el?


Me: X


Khalid: I'm sorry but I don’t seem to remember…


Me: It's me. Baby it's me! *crying*


Khalid: I'm sorry Lama *guilt crept on to him* I was told ena I have memory loss.


Me: Khalid no! Not this! Not me! You're not leaving me like this! Remember please ana Lama.

Khalid turned his face.


Khalid: la 7awla wala 8uwata ila billah. Ya Omy walla I don’t remember, are you my sister? Cousin? Daughter?


Me: *crying* no, I'm your baby, your girl, the love of your life, 5a6eebtek


Khalid: *there was a tear held in his eyes* I had good taste *choke*


Me: baby it's me…


Khalid: I'm so sorry Lama, I am wallah, but there is something about you, your eyes, your smile, your smell, come sleep next to me, I want to be close to you, I might remember then…


We both slept in each other's arms, with him playing with me hair and my head laid on his chest. But it wasn’t the same now… he isn't my Khalid, he doesn’t remember me, he doesn’t love me, he doesn’t care for me, he is a guy with no memory of me, or of what we meant to each other. And I, on the other hand, was a lifeless girl now, sleeping next to a complete stranger, with a rush of feelings, crying, wanting him to realize it is me. The girl he fell head over heels for.

Part 43

Weeks passed and I missed Khalid, he had a business trip in Dubai, Thailand, Paris and London. He was coming back in 5 days! *sigh* I miss him!

Compose message:

Why isn’t Khaloodi thinking about me at this moment? *Shy*

1 message received:

Because he is busy buying his baby a gift *wink*

Compose Message:

Ya 7ath your baby, now back to me!!!

1 message received:

You are my baby

Compose message:

So you're getting me a gift? *astahbil*

1 message received:

Yea ;p

Compose message received:

I miss you! Come back!

1 message received:

I want to 7abeebty, walla I'm so tired of work!

Compose message:

Kuwait is so boring without you!

1 message received:

What's the most thing you miss about me?

Compose message:

Your lips sucking on mine, u?

1 message received:

Your hands touching my body…

Compose message:

U want me?

1 message received:

More than ever!

Compose message:

Then come back *SAD*

1 message received:

Soon baby soon!

Compose message:

So what have you been doing lately?

1 message received:

Working u?

Compose message:

Sleeping! Now?

1 message received:

Shopping

Compose message:

For who?

1 message received:

U;** what are you doing now?

Compose message:

Driving 3al 5aleej, imazja 7a6a 3abdo, with the windows open.. you need to be here!

No Reply… 10 minutes later

Khaloooodi Paris Calling:

Khlaid: hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Me: Hiii khalooodi

Khalid: 7abeebty laish 3al ba7ar, az3al…

Me: 5ala9 ill go back home, and sleep! *mnafsa*

Khalid: nah baby, just make sure guys don’t bother you ok?

Me: yea, baby I miss you, where are you…?

Khalid: I just got into my hotel room

Me: in bed?

Khalid: yea baby, bard

Me: aye adafeek?

Khalid: I wish

Me: True…

Khalid: huh?

Me: u wish hahaha

Khalid: haha I do *mwah*

Me: hathy 7ag wain?

Khalid: your neck

Me: bas?

Khalid: laa… your chin

Me: mm sexy

Khalid: gemme a kiss

Me: nah

Khalid: yala baby

Me: la mako

Khalid: laish?

Me: I want to give you one when you come back, so you can miss it a lot!

Khalid: baby, this one will be a secret *whispering* yala 3aad bas baina

Me: mmmmmmmwahhhhh

Khalid: Fidatich!

Me: we3 we3 we3!

Khalid: what's wrong?!

Me: this ass hole is bothering me!!

Khalid: la it6al3een!

Me: I'm not!

Khalid: wainich?

Me: 3ind the stop light malat share3 il ma6a3em

Khalid: go straight till he can't turn then you turn ok?

Me: ok,,, la7tha… back

Khalid: baby ok?

Me: ok baby!!

We talked about random things for a while, and about our families coming back in a couple of weeks, his work, my university, everything!

20 minutes later, I was at home…

Khalid: hmm, bardana?

Me: ee I'm in bed

Khalid: Nawmeeny

Me: w ana?

Khalid: intai shenu baba?

Me: minu ynawemny?

Khalid: ana

Me: shlone?

Khalid: ill show you, but you start first…

Me: ok,,, There was once a boy….

I told him a childish story for around 8 minutes…

Whispering!!

Me: aloo

Me: Khaloodi

Me: baby

Me: 7ayatii

Beep beep boop baap beep *pushing random numbers*

Then I realized that he tricked me into helping him fall asleep and I was all alone, and all I heard was…

*SNOOOOOOOOOOR SNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOR SNOOOOOOOOOOOR*

Me: goodnight *mwah*

Beep Beep Beep

I woke up the next day to find 2 messages from Khalid

Message 1 (4 am):

Baby I'm so sorry I wanted to tell you this cute story bas wallah I'm so tired and I fell asleep…;**

Message 2 (8:20 am):

I bet you are sleeping right now and I'm in a boring meeting! I wish I was next to you cause baby I would suck your lips, I would bite them slowly I would hold your ass so tight, I would take of your clothes slowly, I want you so bad…

It was 4 pm now; I heard noise in my bathroom it was probably the maid washing it up.

4:30pm

Uff when is she gunna finish I need to pee

I barged into my bathroom, there was no one I was probably imaging it, so I ran and sat on the toilet seat and started to happily pee when…




































Khalid jumped out of my shower!

Me: FUK FUK FUK FUK SHYAYBEK! U SCARED ME! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH KHALOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII GEEEEEEEEEET OUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT

Khalid: la !

Me: who let you in?! you were coming in 5 days!

Khalid: dashait min il ma6ba5, and I cut it short *he kissed my forehead*

Me: *I hid my head between my knees still peeing btw* tawne ga3da, and I look so bad get out!

Khalid: your beautiful baby

Me: get out lemme wash up!

Tara what was happening didn’t sink in! Shako in my bathroom!!!!!!

I washed up and got out of the bathroom to find him in his boxers, he carried my onto my bed, placed me on my back and sat on top of me.

Me: the door!

Khalid: I locked it

Me: I want u!

Khalid: shhh

BTW we were both JUST in our lower underwear!!!

He pulled my hair back, started to suck on my neck, then slowly down to my breasts, I was aroused. He started to suck each one slowly then more forcefully; I pulled him away and threw him on his back. Now I wanted control over his body…

Khalid: U want it?

Me: yea

Khalid: it's all yours

I shamelessly put my hand into his boxers and got his out. I slowly played with it using my hands and looked at his face expressions, he was liking it, so I went down to it and started to play around with it using my tongue, he started to pant heavily, and I sucked harder, he pulled me up to his lips, started to kiss me vigorously, he put his hand on his, continued what I started and slowly came, as we kissed his lips would stop to moan and I would suck on his lower lip.

Me: done?

Khalid: yea, baby I love you, you're so hot

Me: what about me

Khalid: what about you?

Me: don’t I get a little licking?

Khalid: wain tabeen?

I looked down, giving him a hint…

Part 42

We got into the car and we were thinking of a place to go…


Khalid: a7ebech


Me: ana akthar


Khalid: have you spoken to your mom lately?


Me: la, I just msged her gabel ams, u?


Khalid: ee, ysalmoon 3alaich


Me: Khalid


Khalid: hm? *busy changing the song on the ipod*


Me: Khalid!!


Khalid: 3youni, rou7y, aamrai!


Me: wain ra7 nakil?


Khalid: imshai il ma6aar


Me: haha yallah!!


Khalid turned up the music; we were in a MAZAAAAAAJ mood so we heard a mix of English and

Arabic slow songs. We opened the windows he took out a cig, wala3ha.


Me: can I have on?


Khalid: LA! *gave me a look*


Me: Khalid please!!!!


Khalid: just this one, w BAS weyay!


Me: ok *I kissed his cheek*


I took a cig out and wala3tha; I inhaled, and felt like my body became numb.


I want to spend my lifetime loving you

If that is all in life i ever do

I will want nothing else to see me through

If i can spend my lifetime loving you

Though we know we will never come again

Where there is love, life begins

Over and over again


We sang.


We got there, out of the car, into pizza express.


Khalid: shenu tabeen you eat?


Me: pasta


Khalid: ok


Khalid took ordered my food and his food, we sat there talking, laughing, eating, and joking

around. When we were done we got us cold drinks from starbux and headed to the car.


We got there


Khalid: tabeen tsoogeen?


Me: 3adi?


Khalid: ee bas deerai balich 3ala my car. *he kissed my forehead*


I got into the driver's seat as he got into the passengers' seat.


By now the sun was up and it was about 6am.


Khalid was blabbing about me doing this and that and this and that and I did everything he

asked me to do.


Me: I know how to drive!


Khalid: adree baby, I'm just making sure 7abeebty


Me: inzain!


I turned up the music.


Khalid: Hit them with a little ghetto gospel


Both of us:

Those who wish to follow me (my ghetto gospel)

I welcome with my hands

And the red sun sinks at last into the hills of gold

And peace to this young warrior without the sound of guns

If I could recollect before my hood days

I'd sit and reminisce, thinking of bliss of the good days

I stop and stare at the younger, my heart goes to 'em

They tested, it was stress that they under

And nowadays things changed

Khalid turned down the music as I parked the car to hear the sensors. We got into my house and

out into the balcony.


Me: tabee sheesha?


Khalid: ee


Me: wait I'll let the maid set one up.


The maids were already up and I asked her to set one up for Khalid as grapes.


Khalid: where is my phone?


Me: here you go


Khalid: thanks


Me: no problem, ta3aal sit here!


Khalid was checking his phone and didn’t answer me, he looked shocked.


Me: baby shfeek!


Khalid: 7amad daag 3alai five times and he msgd me telling me he needs to talk to me tharory…


Me: minu 7amad?


Khalid: il maba7ith…


Me: oh, shyabee ?


Khalid: 3aad 7amad doesn’t call from this number unless something really important happened!

madry la7tha… He got up and walked into the house while I sat outside and lit up another cig

before he noticed!


*cough cough*


*I hate cigs*


*what the hell does 7amad want?*


*what are they talking about he looks so shocked*


*cough cough*


*haha I should stop trying to inhale, It's bad enough smoking it*


*uff I'm so dizzy!*


*I think it's from the cig, I should throw it off*




The Phone call:


Khalid is Dialing 7amad:


7amad: aloo *sleeping tone*


Khalid: Hala 7amad, shfeek daag? Sh9ayer? *screaming*


7amad: la7tha….


Khalid: shfeek? *screaming*


7amad: ya5ni shfeek t9are5 murty nayma! La7tha 5alni a6la3…


Khalid: k


7amad: ha Khalood


Khalid: 7amad 5ali9, sh9ayer?


7amad: Khalid inta dagait 3alai gabel ams wanting to check up on what happened with

Jassim al X and who he raped. He is in jail. He has been held as a rapist, and he was drunk at

the time which doubles his charges. After many hours il kalam ily 6ala3nah mina is…that lady

was by the name of Hala and she wasn’t his only victim, three other girls were too by the

names of Shoug, Rana, and Deena. There were too girls he couldn’t rape. Two by the name

of Lama, and Zain. He claimed the first one was his first love and when he wanted to he

broke down and couldn’t do it. But the second one had was young and had a lot of

ambitions and he couldn’t bare ruining her life.


*5alny arou7 ashouf what's going on with him*


Khalid was silent.


7amad: ya3ni la t7ate, Lama is all yours.


Khalid: 9ij wallah?


7amad: ee wallah


Khalid: ma ga9art 7amad, thanks a lot


7amad: the wife is calling bye


Khalid: bye


He turned to find me standing at the balcony door staring at him, smiling.


Me: yala baby, done?


Khalid: yea


Me: is everything ok?


Khalid: yea *smile*


Khalid felt like he was the happiest man in the world.

Part 41

I'm sorry 3al g9oor;*

This is for Anonymous and Susy Q.

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August 23:

1 message received (8:54am)

Hala: Hey honey, I left the other day before you guys woke up, the driver picked me up. I didn’t want to cause you two trouble. I'm at home safe, so la t7ateen. Btw I love you thanks so much. I'm traveling to Lebanon for 2 weeks, I'm going to see what I can do about the baby and I'll let you know... bye;*

Reply:
It's ok sweety. Take care and tell me what happens, bel salama *kisses*


1 message received (9:04am)

Khalid: 7abeebty I'm sorry

1 message received (11:39am)

Khalid: Baby please forgive me

1 message received (4:19pm)

Khalid: 7abeebty you’re my life walla don’t let me go

1 message received (1:00am)

Khalid: Goodnight baba;*

August 24:

1 message received (12:10pm)

Khalid: BABY TALK TO ME, ANSWER ME R U ALRIGHT?

1 message received (12:13pm)

Khalid: I'll be back tonight. Bamurich at 10:00pm!

1 message received (10:23pm)

Khalid: wainich? Ana ta7at!

1 message received (10:50pm)

Khalid: Lama ana ta7at!

1 message received (10:59pm)

Khalid: Baby!

1 message received (11:40pm)

Khalid: I need u I swear

Don't blame me for not answering but for the past 4 days I stayed in bed, sleeping the whole time, and I didn’t want to answer him. I couldn’t answer him. I felt deceived!

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

Me: haaaaa?

Mary: me lama!

Me: Mary (nanny) I want to sleeeeep!

Mary: how you not eat! I will tell mama!

Me: Mary go I want to SLEEEEEP!

I was so grumpy! And I wasn’t hungry! Uff '3a9eb? Awal ma bedait a'3fa…

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

Me: ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh WHAT?!

Khalid: r u dressed well?

Me: FAI9AL SHTABE?

Khalid: I'm not fai9al!

Me: U555 BANAM! MINU?

Khalid: afa!

He opened the door and came in, the light pierced into my eyes and I still couldn’t see who it was…

Me: YA ALLAH GOOOOOOOOOOO I WANT TO SLEEEEEEEP *Sniff Sniff* CLOSE THE DOOOOOOOR *I wined*

Khalid: inshalla

Me: Fai9al shtabe!!!?

Khalid: I'm not fai9al yal 5ibla!

The room was completely dark, and I felt him come closer and he got into the covers with me.

Khalid: ana 5alid.

He came closer and hugged me

Me: shtabe?

Khalid: abeech!

Me: maby!

Khalid: shenu ma tabeen?

Me: ma abeek

Khalid: min galbich?!

I stayed quiet

Khalid: MIN GALBICH?

Me: la!

Khalid: a7ebech

He started to kiss my neck, and then I moved away from him.

Khalid: shfeech?

Me: get out.

Khalid: but baby, I want you; I need you in my life

Me: that’s obvious

Khalid: what do you mean?

Me: you think I'm not a virgin and you forget our date, travel without telling me, and now you want me back?!

Khalid: baby I didn’t mean to.

Me: you should have thought about that before traveling!

Khalid: baby don’t do this, I'm not leaving you here!

Me: uff

I was too feeble to even argue, I gave him my back, get further away from him and closed my eyes tightly, feeling the tears run down my cheeks.

I felt him come closer to me till our bodies touched. His head leaned in over my shoulder.

Khalid: I can't bare see you cry like this, come here baby.

Me: *sigh*

I turned to face him and leaned my head on his chest and slept my night through.

I woke up again in the same position we were in, and he was asleep too. I glanced over to my phone to see the time, and it was 3:20am. I couldn’t sleep and I wanted to go out, I was so bored and hungry.

Me: Khalid, goum

Me: khalood

Me: uff Khalid wake up

I started to peck his lips and 7in over his head. 4 minutes later, he responded by pulling me closer to him and parting my lips and sucking on the bottom one. It has been so long without him, I needed his touch his kiss his smell. UFF his smell!! It was amazing! It was manly. I moaned lightly, he moved back.

Khalid: tabeen ba3ad

Me: ee

Khalid: ta3alai

He pulled me over him so now he was sleeping on his back and I was sitting in his belly facing him. He was wearing his jeans and Armani shirt, and I was wearing, granny panties. I wasn’t sleeping with much on…

I took his shirt off, and leaned down to kiss him, so both of our bodies touched. My chest felt so good on his chest. I felt his friend jump up, He brought his hands to my chest and pushed them closer to each other forcefully which made me go crazy. Now we were both moaning, but lightly that is… I stopped leaned back…

Me: YO3ANA! *pout*

Khalid: wa7alata! Ta3alai abeech ana

Me: aby akiiiiil!!

Khalid: ok ok goumai… *He smirked*

Depressed.

You guys, I can't write. I'm so depressed and I have no idea why! Yet, everything is going perfectly in my life!

I have everything I can ask for but I'm not happy.












I'm depressed.


I don’t know why! And I don’t know what to do. I want to continue my story but I just don’t have it in me to. I don’t know what to do anymore, and I don’t want to tell anyone else. Everything is going great except for me! I'm NOT HAPPY! SERIOUSLY!

I just want to sleep or cry or do something depressing, because each time I do something fun I get more depressed! I don’t know what to do ;s I'm desperate!






Suicide?

Ehda2aat;*

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Hey everyone,

I know I have taken a long time, w inshalla soon you'll have your 3 EXTRA LONG parts, I just need a few days because of family issues, thanks;*